So I have my three month checkup for my HRT tomorrow, and I'm feeling really good. I've been feeling really good since I started them. My brother says I haven't turned into a crazy person yet, and if I do he'll let me know so that's reassuring >.<
Prior to the check up of course my endocrinologist needed another blood test done to compare to the one that I got done when I started hormones. I was in the middle of a bad cold going into the lab. Challenge for that day? TRY to sound female with a bad cold? LOL anyway noone really paid me much attention and I contributed very little to the conversations going on in the hall where we were all waiting for our numbers to be called. It's comforting that I wasn't stared at much. Sometimes people stare. Sometimes it's a nice stare, sometimes it's a curious stare, and then sometimes it's an oh goodness, what a freakshow stare. Maybe it's a measure of how confident I am that day I'm not sure.
So bad cold and blood test. Ok that's fun but then there's also the appointment I had coming up on Monday. Well today. Well idk when you're reading this so Monday.. the something of November. Anyway I became concerned about this spot under my big toenail last week and went to see the doctor about it. This doctor looked at my toenail and said. Oooh.. ummm... hmmmm.... ermmmm... eeeee... emmmmm.. and this went on for a good 20 minutes. (Ok more like 20 or 30 seconds but it feels like 20 minutes when the man is just stammering on and NOT telling you it's nothing.) He then pronounces his diagnosis. "Well it's a discolouration" Yes, I can see that. That's why I came in...I thought, but I didn't say that. I asked what he thought was causing the discolouration. "Well it doesn't LOOK like a melanoma" he explained and then went on to admit that every case he's ever sent to get tested for this has resulted in him getting chastised for it not looking anything like a cancer of any sort. I'm not sure what your impression is at this point but being the subject, and possibly facing having toe cancer I WAS CONCERNED THAT THIS MAN JUST ADMITTED HE CAN'T TELL CANCER FROM NOT. I was hoping if not expecting him to tell me it was a bruise or a fungus (ew) or maybe I needed more B12. But no, he fed my fears. He told me then that he was pretty sure it wasn't cancer but he'd get an appointment with a dermatologist just to be sure. I was not exactly instilled with relief or confidence. In fact for the last week I've been fretting and worrying myself half to death.
Today I saw the dermatologist. Someone who hopefully, should know what they are looking at. After discussing whether there was a history of melanoma in my family he looked at my toe. My grandmothers brother had actually died of skin cancer. I think someone told me it was melanoma but I'm not sure now so we just marked that down as "skin cancer". Apparently there are different types and melanoma is a particularly bad one. He looked at both my feet, and in my mouth for pigmentation oddities. I thought that was a little weird but it's a lot more than that other doctor did. He finally said.. "Well it looks like blood. It looks like you injured your toe and it's stained the nail."
I can't tell you how relieved I felt! My heart goes out to anyone who's been in that position and gotten bad news rather than hopeful. It is really scary and I can't imagine the emotions you'd go through if you actually got told you had something like that.
So... probably not toe cancer, yay! And I get my three month check up tomorrow in which I get to tell him I haven't experienced any negative side effects from the estrogen or the spiro. :) Oh and my cold seems to be all over with.
Today is a great day. :D
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